tumultuous, adj.

tumultuous

adjective, characterised by noise, disorder, commotion or uproar.
Marked by a violent turbulence or upheaval, highly agitated, as the mind or emotions; 
distraught; turbulent. 


neurotic behaviours of both parties mixed with his inability to provide enough affection to sooth the wounds = flogging a dead horse.....

Helpless romntic

I am a helpless romantic, I always have been. 
From writing secret little notes to creating a mix tape. I love it.

'I lay my head onto the sand,
The sky resembles  black-lit canopy with holes punched in it.
I'm counting UFO's, 
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy, happy....'

Incubus - Wish you were here.

I picture everyday situations in rose tinted glasses like a scene from a Rom Com, the only thing that is missing is the soundtrack for everyone else to hear.

A hailstorm comes over when we're looking out across a canal, sunshine just glinting through the clouds as the tiny balls of ice hop and bounce at our feet. Time stands still, no one is around and with that peace, I feel it starting, the scene begins, my Rom-com is about to take action... 
All that is needed is for my boyfriend to wrap his arms around me, kiss me on the neck and to share that romantic moment with me... But he doesn't.

Whereas most people see a bonfire, I see a magnitude of colours and crackles of sound, twinkles of light, fireflies escaping to fly into the black lit sky and an overwhelming sense of romance. Those are the times I need someone to love me, someone to hold onto, to share those moments with me, a helpless romantic.

Dictionary definitions vary for the word 'Romance', but what they all agree on is that to be romantic is to indulge in fanciful stories or daydreams, and that is definitely me.

The problem is not many other people share in this daydreaming life....

I see fire...

There are not many songs that as soon as I hear them I have to stop everything I am doing and just listen. They make my stomach flip, tighten my throat and fill me with emotion. I don't just hear them, 'I feel them'.

'I see fire' by Ed Sheeran is one of these, it emanates through me, gives me what I can only describe as chills and touches my every nerve. It feels me with a sense of melancholy and... I love it.

When attending my CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy) sessions I was advised to not listen to sad, melancholy music as my personality reacts very strongly to what I hear, but as the credits rolled on from The Hobbit, (part 2) I was glued to my seat. 

You may think it weird, a CBT therapist prescribing happy music, but there are actual music therapists out there who make money out of improving peoples health through them experiencing music as it is so powerful.

Not everyone will feel this type of emotion when listening to music. Apparently it is only personalities with the dimension of 'openness to experience' who feel the 'chill' factor. These people who are high in openness are creative, curious about many things, have active imaginations and like to play with ideas. 

Commonly people feel nostalgia when hearing a certain song or piece of music and it can transport you back to that moment or that person. Some will feel a strong sense of emotion; happiness, sadness, or anger. 

However, what really intrigues me is Synaesthesia!!!

I had heard of this before but when going to an Andrew McMahon gig, he sung his single, 'Synesthesia' which prompted me to think about this more. There are people out there who are able to feel music with MORE than one of the five senses! It is only something I can imagine however 4% of the population have Synaesthesia. This includes being able to see colour when you hear music or to be able to taste the music! Surely this would make the whole listening experience so much better, like watching a 3D film and feeling like you are actually there.

I don't know anyone with Synaesthesia, but as soon as I do find someone, I want them to describe everything to me...